Today

So i just bought my first two textbooks for PA school, no turning back now I guess.... haha. I am still very apprehensive. I don't want to give up my comfortable, low key life. I want to strive to keep it as mellow as possible. 

Yoga boot camp today. 8-4 yoga. Intense. 8 wheels in a row. It is amazing how tough you are when you have to be trapped inside your own body. I didn't think I ever had will power.

Two of my favorite poses (that I'm sure I don't look as good as these people doing) are one legged wheel and side crow) 

I am working toward being able to do Eight Angle

Farmer's Market trip scheduled for tomorrow on my list; blueberries, blackberries, strawberries, tomatoes, jalepanos, (i want to make pie and salsa), jicama.

I should have done laundry today :( instead I slept when I got home from yoga I was so dead!

:(

I'm in a funk. Today was less than great at work. My kids are doing horribly in life, school, and I can't help but think that it is because I am a failure at being their trainer... 

also, I am getting increasingly freaked out about the fact that I am about to be in alot of school debt and possibly mortgage debt and I have no idea where I am going to live in like 3 months. I hate change and moving and I am so stressed about it all... I feel like everyone knows pieces but that there is no one that can be like ok you will be ok. this will all work out. Is that what being an adult is all about the fact that there is no one there to tell you that? 

and to top it all off I can't watch the Big bang theory online. What is up with that? CBS seriously get with the times! 

Things I love

- Farmer's markets

- Fresh flowers sending and receiving them 

- Good friends who would do anything for you, I am blessed to have more than one so I said Friends

- making things with my hands

- being in control, I also love not having to be in control (I like the latter more)

- being independent

- Giving

- independently owned businesses

-being environmentally minded (i'm sad to say i used to think this was a crock/waste of mental energy)

-truly knowing others 

Is it weird that I have come to value all of these things more recently and I think I am a better person because of it. . .? 

I would love to know what you love (see the last item on the list) 

Lately

work has been my life, I love it though. But sorry that I haven't called, email, facebooked, or otherwise. 

Thoughts...

Driving home... I thought

1. It is sweet when five year olds give you compliments.

2. I was reading my journal last night and couldn't help but think why did I stay in a bad relationship for so long? (I'm really happy now though)

3. I am beginning to have a love affair with cooking. 

4. I used to like eggs scrambled and now I like them sunny side up. 

that is all for now I guess...